:) + :'( = Complicated Post!

ps: Maklum ya kalo Grammar dan Tenses salah, namanya juga belajar. Terus kalo pake Bahasa Indonesia malu ah, terkesan gombalism  :p

Hello, Blog! This is me being honest. I'm amazingly feeling happy today.

Why? There are some reasons... for one happiness.

First, I want to tell you, Blog.

There is a boy. 

Early in the morning, every time I'm still in bed, he texts me even when the sun hasn't rise yet. I love how I waking up to his texts. Then, his texts have becoming a part of my daily routine life. And I hate it when I'm waking up without his texts. It means, I'm falling in love with him, right? Then, I realized, being in love with him makes every morning worth getting up for.

I love how he says, "Us". 

I love how he says, "See you at school!".

I love how he asks, "What are you doing now? Breathing? Blinking? Hehehe".

I love how we were accidentally met at school. 

I love how we were talk a lot on Text Messages and Yahoo Messenger chat, but when we met at school, there was just a silence between us. 

An awkward feeling, and an awkward atmosphere between us.

So there was just a "Hi." and a "Bye."

I'm also laughing with some boys, but none of them ever mean as much as he does.

Because sometimes, I hope I can talk to him like I talk to another guys. 

Because sometimes, I need to think twice before I talk to him. 

Because I felt like, I'm afraid he'll stop to have a chat with me just because he got bored with me, or he lost his words. 

I love how I randomly smiling every time I get a text from him, or when he greets me on a chat. 

I'm in love with him, and I don't know since when, and why I do love him.

And then, the second.

"You know that you are in love when the hardest thing to do is say good-bye!”

It was 2 weeks ago. 

When a girl, his ex, asked me to stay away from him. I acted like it wasn't a big deal, when really it was breaking my heart. And I didn't even know why! He was just one of my ordinary friend, wasn't he? Then why I felt like I want to tell her, "I won't. I can't."

But at first, I said, "Yes." Because I have no reason why I don't want to stay away from him?
It hurts me so when I saw him in my Twitter Timeline, and I couldn't give him a response.
I felt so sad because I still want to be near with him. And that was the fact.

Wednesday, 2 weeks ago.

That was the time when she asked me, "Please tell me, could you just stay away from him?"
And I can't even nodding my head. It wasn't as easy as when I said, "Yes." on Yahoo Messenger.
Then when my friends ask me, "If you won't leave him, is it means you like him? You like him, don't you?"
And suddenly, I smile. And my face started to blush.

Is that so? Am I falling in love with him, so I won't stay away from him? 

I realize, 

if we were just an ordinary friend, I'll let her take him away. And I'll be okay if I should stay away.

Then, the third.

"I love time warping." - Raditya Dika

Well, time warping is thing that I knew from one of Raditya Dika's book.
Time warping means time flies so fast when you're with the one you love, or with the one you're in love with.

Well, I love it when he came to my home, and took me somewhere. And we had a time-warping situation, not realizing that time flies so fast when we're together. All that hours we spent felt like a mere minute. It was kind of weird, huh?

And it also happens every time we had a Yahoo Messenger chat. I thought that time flies too fast every time I have a chat with him. That time warping moment made me realize, "So, maybe I'm in love."

And then, the fourth. Let's change the subject from "he" to "you" okay? -_-

Today, I got some randomly-laughing-feelings. I remember the day when we were just a-REAL-ordinary-friend.

I remember the day when you asked me how to make a girl loves you. I said, "Um, I don't know." But now, you made me falling in love with your own way!

I remember the day when you asked for my advice, about, "How if the girl I love has taken, but her heart is mine?". I remember I told you, "She has to choose, you, or his boyfriend. That's all."

I remember the day when I asked for your advice, about, "How if I decided to broke-up with my boyfriend, because of my family problem." And I remember, I posted your advice here, in this Blog! I remember, you told me, "Me too. I'm not sure I'll be together forever with my girlfriend."

Then, I feel some disappointed feelings when...

I  remember the day when you told me that your little-sister name is... same with your ex-girlfriend's name.

I remember the day when my friend told me about how sweet your relationship was.

I remember the day when my friend told me you gave a sweet surprise to your ex-girlfriend when she had birthday. That was so sweet. 

Well, I wasn't a stranger in your life, right?

I know how sweet your relationship was. Exactly. 

I always remember how I ever think you and your ex-girlfriend are a cute couple, though. 

Actually, those little things about you make me afraid. 

What if I'm not good enough for you?
What if a part of you still in love with her?

I remember the day when I opened your Blog, and I saw a picture there.

A short-text, "There's a part of me that will always be in love with you." :(

I remember the day when your ex-girlfriend's friend told me, "You know what? He was crying over her, just to make her come back to his side."

Actually, I'm not really sure... 

I'm in love with you, and that is why I'm afraid about everything, and made this post for almost 1 hour.